D-Day
Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Today is my hearing for the child support modification.
I woke up yesterday unable to face one more day of pretending this isn't tearing my insides up into finely shredded Kara innards. As I lay there in the dark, looking at the time and watching the minutes tick away from me, I came to a decision; I played hookie from work and kept Kendell home from school. We spent the day in pj's, sleeping in, and enjoying being home together.

It was a much needed break as I couldn't seem to focus on anything with the stress of this upcoming hearing looming over my head like a dark cloud. For a day I was just a Mom.

So today reality has hit me with a full frontal and Hernando and I must go too meet our fate. In my heart of hearts I know that regardless of the outcome, it doesn't change the fact that we will continue to receive nothing, even if it's a less nothing then previously, it still adds up to a big fat zero. It's the insult, the inconvenience of it all, that keeps me awake at night, worrying over things that I can not change.

So I pray for patience, for acceptance, I pray that I can maintain my dignity despite overwhelming odds...

and I pray that I can stretch this meeting out long enough that his lawyer has too charge him for overtime....
after all, it's the small things in life that give you pleasure.






5 Comments:
Blogger Carrie had this to say:

Good for you! Sometimes you just gotta say "F*ck it"!

I hope it goes well and I hope it lasts just long enough for you to feel better about it.

1:51 PM, October 25, 2006 

Blogger Carrie had this to say:

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1:51 PM, October 25, 2006 

Blogger ƒåυνέ had this to say:

Oh I hope it all turned out well!! (and the bastard got charged tons of overtime!)

4:07 PM, October 25, 2006 

Blogger Just a trumpet player had this to say:

Sending lots of evil wishes his way...

Hoping things went as smootly as possible for you.

5:54 AM, October 26, 2006 

Anonymous InterstellarLass had this to say:

That's the spirit! File your little heart away!

9:01 PM, October 27, 2006 

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