Today is just another day
I got up, got ready for work
The ghost of you followed me as I made the bed.
I could see you helping on your side
I pulled back the shower curtain and you were already there
My body took the space yours used to occupy
Your drawers are still yours. I can’t bear to use them
As I did my hair I could see your exasperated expression at wasted time
I can almost feel your hand in mine as I drive to work, our silence is comfortable and full
I look over at the seat next to me expecting you to be there
I can feel your hand as you run it over my hair, caress my cheek
My cell phone chirps and my first thought is that it’s you
But it never is
Today is just another day
You are a living ghost that haunts me
I still expect to roll over and cuddle into the warmth of your back
Your pillow is a pale substitute
I tell myself this is for the best
That I deserve better
Your smile mocks those thoughts
and the memory of your soft lips on my neck makes my heart ache
Today is just another day
That I have to get through
Without you in it
I wish my ghost was haunting you
