There are so many things I need in my life, so many requests that I can make but I am only asking this one small thing.
Each year Christmas is something I dread. My mother is gone and resides now with you. When she passed, she took with her the joy and excitement I found in the holiday. With her also went my security blanket, my traditions, and what made my family whole.
I struggle to find the spirit of Christmas for my son.
Please help me find succor and release from the guilt that hangs off my shoulders. Let me look past the money struggles and feelings of being alone, to find the magic that used to tickle up from my toes at the thought of Christmas. Let me enjoy each moment of this Christmas so that I can pass on those feelings to my child, so that he in turn may pass them to his own children.
Please help me let go of those things that I cannot change and embrace the joy of my child. Help me instill the rush of memories associated with melting fudge and sugar cookies. Let the sound of Christmas music warm him from the inside out and the excitement of the morning be about family and joy and not just toys. Grant me patience and humor and most of all,
please grant me peace.
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Callie had this to say:
(((HUGS)))
Maybe you and your son could find some Christmas traditions of your own that he can carry on when he has his own children?- 4:37 PM, December 14, 2007
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Gypsy had this to say:
I hope you get a little Christmas spirit soon. {hugs}
- 8:02 AM, December 17, 2007
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Red Hot Sexy Papa had this to say:
Close your eyes and think of your own Christmas celebration... say Karamia-style. I'm all for originality.
- 7:57 PM, December 17, 2007
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The Creeper had this to say:
Kara, I can't begin to imagine how hard it is.
I'm all for starting your own traditions. Maybe base them off something you used to do when you were a child, but tweak them to what will work for your present.
I notice that although my parents are both still alive, our family traditions are changing because people change. Mom's getting older, my brother's clan is growing by leaps and bounds, and there are demands from Paul's family that we be with them on occasion at Christmas. This all contributes to the need to change. And so the traditions of my youth, are barely there. It's ok...these are our traditions.- 9:01 AM, December 19, 2007
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*~*Cece*~* had this to say:
I feel you on this one. Big time. {{hugs}]
- 3:28 PM, December 19, 2007
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TamWill had this to say:
Sounds like you had some wonderful memories with your ma. I think Christmas is special b/c of memories made. It can be as simple as making popcorn and stringing it with fishing line to hang on the tree, yet it becomes unforgetable.
You are very creative so it will be easy for you. Merry Christmas- 11:11 PM, December 21, 2007
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Callie had this to say:
Just wanted to wish you and your son a Very Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year!
- 8:58 AM, December 24, 2007
